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Taking Care of Me
By Audrey | April 17, 2010
First off, how adorable is the new nightie I am wearing in today’s update on my site? This reminds me so much of Waldo I couldn’t resist, though the little stripes make it impossible to wear on cam, I don’t care. It’s so comfy and the little ribbons are so much fun to play with, I had to shoot a little strip tease set so you could see up close what I’ve been lounging in many evenings.
Lately I’ve been almost angelic (for me anyway): working out an average of 3 days a week for an hour or just a bit over. I do a combination of at-home stuff like running up and down the stairs in my complex, workout tapes (I have a bunch already + thank you Netflix! ;), yoga, and other toning exercising and dumb-bells stuff. I’ve never been able to stick to going to the gym except when it was right next to my office, but I have quite a bit of exercise stuff, books, podcasts, magazines, all kinds of goodies to mix it up.
It’s nothing new for me to exercise but it is a bit different for me to be on an exercise kick like this with no weight loss goals in mind. For maybe the first time in my life I am exercising just for me, just to slow down and enjoy using my body, make it stronger, release all the stress I’ve been carrying. It feels wonderful!
Now, though I don’t really have any appearance related goals, I did buy a new sarong a couple weeks ago, and as soon as I did, I started looking forward to summer and swimsuit time! I realized this was the first year I had started a new workout program in time for it to actually make a difference by the time I am lounging around by the pool…hmmmmm! Got me all excited to shop for a new suit, sandals, earrings, the whole bathing ensemble!
Wait a minute…the point of this post is that I am working out and trying to NOT care if I lose weight, look better, or keep up with the Crunch girls on my workout tapes. It’s nice to envision my toned butt by the pool (go ahead, imagine it, isn’t it lovely?) but I have NO interest in dieting right now. I’ve learned to do things in moderation *most* of time and that is enough for me, even if I have a little belly pooch til the day I die. The point is getting stronger, feeling better, kissing goodbye to tension, and trying to be healthier overall.
When I am exercising regularly like this it really makes me realize just how important it really is, taking care of my body and treating it right. Dangerous territory of generalization here, but I really believe that our culture is so fixated with our bodies as tools – that it’s important to look beautiful or powerful or attractive because it’s part of what it means to be “Successful”. So many times in my life I have adopted a new workout routine because I wanted to lose weight, fit into a dress, look hot by the swimming pool – yep as you can see I am not immune to these kinds of pressures even now!
Not as often, but sometimes in moments of clarity, I feel that exercise, eating healthy, and taking care of my body should not have anything to do with some other goal. We think of our minds and bodies as separate, yet when we fail to take care of our bodies, all these little nasty bouts of depression, anger, and frustration can plague us. I especially am prone to this and if I stop exercising, it’s almost a guarantee that I’ll start feeling depressed within a couple of weeks. Makes me wonder why I would need a new dress or a swimsuit to motivate me to take care of myself when the real reason is much more basic and obvious: I take care of my body because it is ME.
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